A record of my ascent as a theistic Satanist and black magician by Astarte Astaroth
Art by Mateusz Twardoch - NOTE: I am bipolar and I was manic as hell on this day. When I am manic, it feels like everything I've ever wanted is dropping into place. Not that it isn't. But things look different when mundane reality eventually seeps back in a few days (or weeks) later. My... Continue Reading →
Art by Cambionart - Know thyself. This is absolutely required in order to become a magical adept. Why do I feel so shut down? Why am I in so much pain? Know thyself. I found out that the occult is real in May. I immediately realized that as someone who has been very sensitive to... Continue Reading →
September 26, 2021 Let's get real. I am rejecting my life before now. I cut the threads when I was working with Arachne. I will trade everything about my world for magic. Is this wise? I do know that there is nothing more important to me than the things I believe I will achieve with... Continue Reading →
What if I brought an agenda to chaos? Trying to turn magic into this certain thing... it doesn't work. I looked, and occult was real. I looked, and saw magic as my new path. Finally, my life would begin. Heartache. The entities come when they want. They come during the day, then ignore me during... Continue Reading →
I felt a few energetic tickles while I was watching TV. I shut off the TV, and took a shower, then settled in front of my altar. I have discovered that Seth (Set, Seth) likes it when I stroke his statue. I stroke down his long nose, and on his funny ears. His arms, his... Continue Reading →
JOURNAL — Sep 21 2021 — I have been completely miserable starting the day after E.A. Koetting's live chat on the 15th. During the live chat, I experienced a huge flow of blissful energy coming through E.A. and his channel into me. He spoke to me near the end. The next day, I could not... Continue Reading →
I called to Belial. I dripped some drops of blood onto his Sigil. I spoke the mantras softly. Then I was silent, and only talked with my mind, as he prefers. He came very gently at first. I opened to him, and offered my body as his temple. His presence remained very gentle. I had... Continue Reading →
I began the simple invocation of Naamah. She did not come right away. It took a few minutes of chanting, then I felt her very lightly. I was feeling unfocused, the touch of the divine felt distant. I called her some more. Suddenly I saw a very clear vision of huge red flames slowly rippling... Continue Reading →
An excerpt from “Lords and Ladies of the Left Hand Path: Forbidden Practices and Spiritual Heresies” (2012) by Stephen E. Flowers, Ph.D – 800 words, 3.5 minute read – There are two major criteria for being considered a true lord (or lady) of the left-hand path: deification of the self and antinomianism. DEIFICATION OF THE... Continue Reading →
JOURNAL September 10 2021 Art from Iron Cthulhu Apocalypse "100 Songs: Necronomicon / Dead Names" I am so contracted I can hardly breathe. I have met the enemy on the battlefield. The enemy is fear. I drew two cards: The inner and outer path to deal with fear: The World, and the Four of Wands.... Continue Reading →
Twilight in the Underworld 
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