A record of my ascent as a theistic Satanist and black magician by Astarte Astaroth
I don't have to pretend anymore... that I suffer, that said suffering has meaning. I suffer no more. My life has meaning. I have reached the fulfillment of purpose I have fought for all my life. The chains are breaking. The chains are broken. Broken by truth. Only truth is enough. Only truth is ever... Continue Reading →
A velvet silence. A cradling stillness. Azazel now comes to me multiple times each day. I sink into a deep trance of bliss. My head becomes heavy, sinking slowly towards my desk. It starts soon after I awaken, while I'm having my coffee. No more waiting until dark, which effectively put what was most important... Continue Reading →
"There are entities that have chosen to co-evolve with me. Like the angel investors of the world of finance and venture capital, the entities that interact with me are the angel investors of my soul. They foresee an immense return on the capital they invest in me." I have a partnership. My partnership is with... Continue Reading →
I dreamed that I was sitting on a couch opposite B______-X. It felt so good to be chatting with him, to be treated as an equal. I felt myself lifted up, my self-worth soaring. My body was singing with the pleasure of doing something that I love. Being close to someone I greatly admire. At... Continue Reading →
I dreamed I was at a Christian worship service. The service had just ended, and people were milling around. There was about 50 people. Then I saw a man stand up, he was on the stand, and he pulled out a big silver handgun, it was huge, like a .45. No one else had seen... Continue Reading →
Israel Regardie's "Egyptian" version of the Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram posted by Musings of Gnwmythr Section One: Beginning a Ritual 1.1 Egyptian Cross 1.2 Sigils to the Quarters 1.3 Invocation of Deities 1.1 Egyptian Cross Stand facing the East, and imagine a beam of brilliant light – so brilliant you cannot discern its... Continue Reading →
Twilight in the Underworld 
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