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Speaking with action: a game changer

I FEEL COMPLETELY REMADE. I now speak with action in ritual (and in life). Now the words of my rituals feel authentic to me. They feel real. And now the words I make with others also sound authentic in a way they didn't before. I was down inside, trying to translate across a gap, my social... Continue Reading →

Night of black flame

Set has been calling to me.  I see the Crimson Desert in my mind, then walk amongst the immense, colorful columns crowned with stylized lotus and papyrus blossoms, following the whisps of smoke trailing upon the incense perfumed air. I find myself in the soaring temple of a past life... loving you, worshiping you. The... Continue Reading →

Untethered evil

I had an AMAZING ritual with Sathanas last night. Pressing with intense energy on my third-eye for a long time. Falling through a crack in the rolling, moonlit fields of sagebrush, suddenly in the world below, a world where evil is not tethered. Surrounded by evil, my entire chest cavity went cold. I walked down... Continue Reading →

Memories of magic that sustain me

The hum of the engine, the subtle roar of the tires on the ribbon of asphalt so close beneath me, the warmth of the heater, curled in bliss in the unspeakable dark, my parents’ near and murmuring voices above me… the quieting, winding down of the engine, jostled as we were turning at last onto... Continue Reading →

Late August transformation with the Magus

22 August, after our online meeting Seeing myself through the Magus’ eyes… I see that I have an agenda, which is by nature limiting. It is the same, familiar one. The fix. The thing that will make me feel alive, connected to the thrilling process of life. This is based on feeling empty, disconnected, broken.... Continue Reading →

Working with Belial

August 28, 2022 I am so far behind on my grimoire. I will record a few important things as I remember them, but first, regarding my ritual work tonight. I planned to work with Sathanas, but was impressed to work with Belial. He came to me with a heavy possession of bliss, my body fluid... Continue Reading →

Three nights with Lord Sathanas

I have performed three evening rituals over the last three days without recording them in my grimoire (which is part of this blog). I need to catch up. All three have been similar in that at a certain point in the ritual, after I feel the bliss of trance and internal energy work of possession... Continue Reading →

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