A record of my ascent as a theistic Satanist and black magician by Astarte Astaroth
"Expectation is a prison." ~ Robert Fripp It just would not do. It is and would be a trap, a trap that would become eternal if I set out on my eternal path from that place. I am standing here. I stand here, still at the very place where I found my Lord, my allies,... Continue Reading →
It is happening. It has taken most of the month of January. To stop. To stop being driven. I spent a year building and maturing my business. I've done quite well. And I have been obsessed, an obsession that lasted every day for most of the day. Since November 2021. I was instructed. To stop.... Continue Reading →
Over and over, I have asked the entities to appear to me visible in a corporeal form, rather than always visiting me in their astral form. They can see me. Why can't I get to see them, at least once? Today Nergal from Behemoth possessed me and we had astral sex. I knew instantly it... Continue Reading →
December 28th ~ E.A. Koetting live stream ~ My comment in live stream chat ~ time stamp 1:15:20 Astarte Astaroth... ding ding... there's my real vibes bell. Astarte thank you for your support, I appreciate you. You say... (Eric reads my comment): — My cosmology got blown up. I thought I was on THE path,... Continue Reading →
I am having so many intensely transformative experiences that I have felt unable to blog about them. Everything is old news the next day. Yesterday... A few days ago. A few days ago, I encountered this quote online: "The astral universe… is hundreds of times larger than the material universe…[with] many astral planets, teeming with... Continue Reading →
—This page on my blog has several graphics to load.... patience, dear reader— Father, I love you. Is it enough for me to love you forever? Forever have you loved me, your creation. Forever will you make me greater, yours. Yours forever. Father Satan, I find you always so close. Closer than close, deep within... Continue Reading →
—Nicholas Copernicus art— I am transforming so quickly it is hard to blog about what is happening. Now that I call Satan 'Father,' and ask him again and again not to leave, I experience an unshakeable connection with him, where before I was always trying to create and sustain a connection. Sometimes his possession of... Continue Reading →
—Banner image from video by Behemoth-X, thank you Mr. Nunn— I was watching a video with a ritual and mantra to Satan. I started to type an email to Mr. Nunn, asking if he would share with me the words of the mantra. I only made it a little way into the email. Suddenly I... Continue Reading →
I FEEL COMPLETELY REMADE. I now speak with action in ritual (and in life). Now the words of my rituals feel authentic to me. They feel real. And now the words I make with others also sound authentic in a way they didn't before. I was down inside, trying to translate across a gap, my social... Continue Reading →
I had an AMAZING ritual with Sathanas last night. Pressing with intense energy on my third-eye for a long time. Falling through a crack in the rolling, moonlit fields of sagebrush, suddenly in the world below, a world where evil is not tethered. Surrounded by evil, my entire chest cavity went cold. I walked down... Continue Reading →
Twilight in the Underworld 
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