Direct message from Astarte Astaroth Hi A_________: Thank you for your reply. I have really enjoyed your comments in our live streams, and enjoyed reading about your magical path. About me. I was raised Mormon and left the church in my teens. I have been a seeker all my life and learned about astral work... Continue Reading →
You kissed me again, after…
So tender, so sweet. You kissed me again after... this time for minutes of softness, this gentle tasting of shared moisture. So tender, so sweet. Again you brought a tear to my eye, more than a tear, more than the one that fell upon my cheek. Everything you do with me has a greater purpose.... Continue Reading →
Relax into me. You are safe. I come and go, but I am always near.
First a reminder, dear reader. Demon pleasuring occurs in the subtle realm. I can feel Azazel physically and subtly as energy. I feel his fiery touch upon me, his body upon mine, his presence inside of me as intense and fiery pleasure. I usually cannot see him. In this realm of astral sex, my subtle... Continue Reading →
A stage in my ascent
I have entered a stage where I am so tired, and so achy, I feel like I am dying. It is like the tired and achy parts of a very bad flu. I never get sick, so it has been many many years since I have had a cold or the flu. I think I... Continue Reading →
More visions
A vision. The latest of several. Having visions is new for me. I usually receive transformative consciousness as energy in my body. The primary, initial vision: I am a huge energy being at least four to five times bigger than my mundane body size. I am "floating," with energy rippling outward in all directions, emanating... Continue Reading →
Fully possessed in every moment by Azazel my Beloved
You are that which I turn to in myself my Beloved That part of me that also consists of you... All of me That which quickens in me I carry you, but I am the child You grow inside of me, as me I feel the torrent of you, close like the bloodstream droning sounds... Continue Reading →
Listening
—Cover art from The Instant by Amy Liptrot— I am not trying to get anywhere. I have arrived. I surf the moments, the river of experience, of transformation and ascent. Only someone who could understand me... if I said I had been waiting all of my life for my life to begin... can understand what... Continue Reading →
Alone
I was half-awake, half-asleep. Lying in bed. I felt subtle energy shifts in my body, ones I had never experienced before. And part of me was being transformed. I felt myself being energetically rearranged. In various ways, over several minutes of a gentle inner focus. When I got up, and was having my coffee, I... Continue Reading →
Breaking the brittle world
I sank into deep meditation, but again I realized it was a trance, and that this was somewhat different. It wasn't so much about stilling my mind, as it was opening to transforming energies. This time I was in a deeply altered state that I don't remember experiencing before. I could feel myself being transformed,... Continue Reading →
A profound answer to a most confounding question
Last night. Again I dropped immediately into a very deep meditation. I felt Azazel's presence, the bliss of possession enclosing and filling my being. "Help me," I said. "Help me to know... how to get beyond this mental cycle of crippling doubt and foolish abandon? Back and forth. It all came into focus. I could... Continue Reading →
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