Breaking the brittle world

I sank into deep meditation, but again I realized it was a trance, and that this was somewhat different. It wasn't so much about stilling my mind, as it was opening to transforming energies. This time I was in a deeply altered state that I don't remember experiencing before. I could feel myself being transformed,... Continue Reading →

Pathworking with Azazel

Night before last. I felt the call to my altar. I lit all of the candles, waving incense before my temple deities. I settled in to meditate. I called to Azazel, inviting him to my temple. Eya On Ca Azazel Aken. Great king, come to my temple. Come to my temple. I began to visualize... Continue Reading →

Ritual

— Cover art by Sir Lawrence Alma-Tadema 'The Women of Amphissa'— Ritual. I wore my special temple robe and unfurled the Qliphothic circle to stand/sit in. I lit all the candles, and waved incense to the deities of my temple. I sacrificed (a little of) my blood on my new Azazel sigil. My breathing was... Continue Reading →

All my life

I don't have to pretend anymore... that I suffer, that said suffering has meaning. I suffer no more. My life has meaning. I have reached the fulfillment of purpose I have fought for all my life. The chains are breaking. The chains are broken. Broken by truth. Only truth is enough. Only truth is ever... Continue Reading →

Azazel

A velvet silence. A cradling stillness. Azazel now comes to me multiple times each day. I sink into a deep trance of bliss. My head becomes heavy, sinking slowly towards my desk. It starts soon after I awaken, while I'm having my coffee. No more waiting until dark, which effectively put what was most important... Continue Reading →

Falling in love with a demon

"There are entities that have chosen to co-evolve with me. Like the angel investors of the world of finance and venture capital, the entities that interact with me are the angel investors of my soul. They foresee an immense return on the capital they invest in me." I have a partnership. My partnership is with... Continue Reading →

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