I cannot be forsaken

At last I see it. I was discouraged. I felt I had failed. My development through magick was meager at best. I updated my altar with Santa Muerte at the center. I am connected to the Death Current. And at last I see it. I have been trying to hang on to the feelings of... Continue Reading →

I KNOW WHO I AM

From my conversation today with a fellow Occultist on Discord I have had some time to digest your excellent reply about your path. Yet another person I meet who was called to the path quite young. I always feel jealousy. For whatever reason, I hungered so deeply for the magic I found in books like... Continue Reading →

Christianity is a sham

If you are a Christian reading my blog, your Christian mind control is about to twist my words—those of how I came to the Occult. You will encounter juicy words and concepts such as "possession," "forbidden," "dangerous," "damnation," "evil." You will so easily understand exactly what I encountered in myself when I described an "utter... Continue Reading →

Death and fire

"Offerings to the inner fire, fuel for the alchemical processes; divinely pressured I begin to shine as the diamond jewel of freedom, the purified gold of ascent." It happened for the first time... that I ever remember. I asked myself what to focus on this evening, and thought of a couple of options... And I... Continue Reading →

Best day ever… EVER

Art by Mateusz Twardoch - NOTE: I am bipolar and I was manic as hell on this day. When I am manic, it feels like everything I've ever wanted is dropping into place. Not that it isn't. But things look different when mundane reality eventually seeps back in a few days (or weeks) later. My... Continue Reading →

Getting real

September 26, 2021 Let's get real. I am rejecting my life before now. I cut the threads when I was working with Arachne. I will trade everything about my world for magic. Is this wise? I do know that there is nothing more important to me than the things I believe I will achieve with... Continue Reading →

Leaning into dissolving ego

JOURNAL — Sep 21 2021 — I have been completely miserable starting the day after E.A. Koetting's live chat on the 15th. During the live chat, I experienced a huge flow of blissful energy coming through E.A. and his channel into me. He spoke to me near the end. The next day, I could not... Continue Reading →

What is the Left-Hand Path of Magic?

An excerpt from “Lords and Ladies of the Left Hand Path: Forbidden Practices and Spiritual Heresies” (2012) by Stephen E. Flowers, Ph.D – 800 words, 3.5 minute read – There are two major criteria for being considered a true lord (or lady) of the left-hand path: deification of the self and antinomianism. DEIFICATION OF THE... Continue Reading →

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