A record of my ascent as a theistic Satanist and black magician by Astarte Astaroth
What if I can evolve, my being, my consciousness? What if that is real? What if there are many entities that have an interest in my ascent? In the ascent of those of my kind who choose to evolve. My willingness and desire to evolve is an unshakeable part of who I am, and it... Continue Reading →
At last I see it. I was discouraged. I felt I had failed. My development through magick was meager at best. I updated my altar with Santa Muerte at the center. I am connected to the Death Current. And at last I see it. I have been trying to hang on to the feelings of... Continue Reading →
From my conversation today with a fellow Occultist on Discord I have had some time to digest your excellent reply about your path. Yet another person I meet who was called to the path quite young. I always feel jealousy. For whatever reason, I hungered so deeply for the magic I found in books like... Continue Reading →
—Cover art by Fosco Culto— If you are a Christian reading my blog, your Christian mind control is about to kick in big time. You will experience the thrill of witnessing the eternal damnation of a soul! What could be more exciting? You will think that I actually am "slipping towards damnation," "giving up control... Continue Reading →
"Offerings to the inner fire, fuel for the alchemical processes; divinely pressured I begin to shine as the diamond jewel of freedom, the purified gold of ascent." It happened for the first time... that I ever remember. I asked myself what to focus on this evening, and thought of a couple of options... And I... Continue Reading →
Art by Mateusz Twardoch - NOTE: I am bipolar and I was manic as hell on this day. When I am manic, it feels like everything I've ever wanted is dropping into place. Not that it isn't. But things look different when mundane reality eventually seeps back in a few days (or weeks) later. My... Continue Reading →
Art by Cambionart - Know thyself. This is absolutely required in order to become a magical adept. Why do I feel so shut down? Why am I in so much pain? Know thyself. I found out that the occult is real in May. I immediately realized that as someone who has been very sensitive to... Continue Reading →
September 26, 2021 Let's get real. I am rejecting my life before now. I cut the threads when I was working with Arachne. I will trade everything about my world for magic. Is this wise? I do know that there is nothing more important to me than the things I believe I will achieve with... Continue Reading →
JOURNAL — Sep 21 2021 — I have been completely miserable starting the day after E.A. Koetting's live chat on the 15th. During the live chat, I experienced a huge flow of blissful energy coming through E.A. and his channel into me. He spoke to me near the end. The next day, I could not... Continue Reading →
An excerpt from “Lords and Ladies of the Left Hand Path: Forbidden Practices and Spiritual Heresies” (2012) by Stephen E. Flowers, Ph.D – 800 words, 3.5 minute read – There are two major criteria for being considered a true lord (or lady) of the left-hand path: deification of the self and antinomianism. DEIFICATION OF THE... Continue Reading →
Twilight in the Underworld 
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