A record of my ascent as a theistic Satanist and black magician by Astarte Astaroth
—Image from Duran Duran 'Come Undone" official video— I throw my arms wide and offer myself to the divine ones who are changing me. Take this neediness, this fear, this constant perfectionism with accompanying searing pain of regret. If this is dissolved, I will become something new, something free, something I cannot imagine. Once I... Continue Reading →
Yesterday I was touched twice. My experience has been that physical touches are always Satan. One unmistakable touch was upon my third-eye area, with a very small downward movement, similar to receiving shaktipat, which I received in 1999. The other sometime later yesterday was a sudden grasp of my right foot, around the toes, followed... Continue Reading →
It is happening. It has taken most of the month of January. To stop. To stop being driven. I spent a year building and maturing my business. I've done quite well. And I have been obsessed, an obsession that lasted every day for most of the day. Since November 2021. I was instructed. To stop.... Continue Reading →
I intended to work with Bartzabel, having created a ritual and researched his sigil, to which I offered blood (using a lancet), but I was impressed instead to work with Lord Satanas. I lit the brazier fire with drops of my blood in front of Baphomet—the representation of Lord Satan at the center of my... Continue Reading →
I sat down to do a "ritual" with Lord Sathanas. Ultimate minimalism. I lit the red candles, low and exquisite light. I said nothing. I only waited. What would happen? As I waited, I felt the intense trance start that I had the first couple of times I worked with Sathanas. So intense it was... Continue Reading →
E______. Hail brother. You mentioned Satan. I was intrigued and scared to work with him (Christian mind control). His possession of me is VERY POWERFUL, the strongest I have ever felt. I have a hard time not falling asleep when I work with him. I tried to evoke him to physical manifestation (I haven't tried... Continue Reading →
Hi E____, I'll bet you know immediately what I am talking about if I say that as someone raised Mormon, I am plagued by doubt. Self-questioning and examination. Re-examination. Endless...! Am I fooling myself? Has the devil's deception begun to take root in my day to day life? In the very things I care most... Continue Reading →
Last night. I felt the place of trance opening as I lit the candles, waved the incense, offered drops of my blood to the sigils of Azazel and Belial. I smeared my blood on a slip of paper and burned it in my brazier, offering my life's essence to Death. I said some magical phrases.... Continue Reading →
Twilight in the Underworld 
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