A record of my ascent by Astarte Astaroth
Sorry it didn't work out for (all of) us to get together (for a group ritual). We need to do that soon. VOUDON RITUALS Wet head being fill vacuum being brought into the head back up from full possession snakes twine together Azazel pulling me to ritual depths Alabaster, spearmint, lemons, bowl of water cover... Continue Reading →
Hail, and well met, __________. Thank you for your intriguing DM. I would love to get to know you more. Since finding the occult a year ago, I have (so far) been a solitary practitioner with online connections to occult learning about the skills of invocation/evocation, astral travel, etc. I have always been an adept... Continue Reading →
Ack, I am back in the soup. Doubt and fear. Fear and doubt. I face these as my enemy. The line against them is broken, I fall back. Reeling backwards into the familiar fox hole of my life of hiding. No! I might be in this hole again... It might feel inevitable... BUT the energies... Continue Reading →
Hi E____, I'll bet you know immediately what I am talking about if I say that as someone raised Mormon, I am plagued by doubt. Self-questioning and examination. Re-examination. Endless...! Am I fooling myself? Has the devil's deception begun to take root in my day to day life? In the very things I care most... Continue Reading →
Hi E___... I had a huge insight. As you know, I experienced a full awakening of my kundalini by a Hindu master at the beginning of 2000, and lived in an ashram for three years. From that time until discovering the Occult a year ago, I experienced intense kundalini and meditation work that has burned... Continue Reading →
I feel like I have consolidated the gains of the last 20+ years. I linger here at the crossroads... But what if I should strike now, while the iron is hot? Is it time to move from what is known, to set out on a new path? I feel the potential for forward movement, but... Continue Reading →
Direct message from Astarte Astaroth Hi A_________: Thank you for your reply. I have really enjoyed your comments in our live streams, and enjoyed reading about your magical path. About me. I was raised Mormon and left the church in my teens. I have been a seeker all my life and learned about astral work... Continue Reading →
I can frame it thus: it is not enough. It is not enough to know my true nature: a being much greater than this. It is not enough to know the true nature of this, the universe: truly the multiverse. It is not enough to know that I will not reach a full attainment... this,... Continue Reading →
—Cover art from The Instant by Amy Liptrot— I am not trying to get anywhere. I have arrived. I surf the moments, the river of experience, of transformation and ascent. Only someone who could understand me... if I said I had been waiting all of my life for my life to begin... can understand what... Continue Reading →
I sank into deep meditation, but again I realized it was a trance, and that this was somewhat different. It wasn't so much about stilling my mind, as it was opening to transforming energies. This time I was in a deeply altered state that I don't remember experiencing before. I could feel myself being transformed,... Continue Reading →
Twilight in the Underworld 
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