It is happening. It has taken most of the month of January. To stop. To stop being driven. I spent a year building and maturing my business. I've done quite well. And I have been obsessed, an obsession that lasted every day for most of the day. Since November 2021. I was instructed. To stop.... Continue Reading →
The wild child will not go quietly. She simply will not budge.
I've always been a wild child. I was orphaned by my parents while still living with them (yes, this is possible). Summer days meant riding my bike through the wild fields that surrounded our small subdivision, leading the charge with the other children in my neighborhood. There were tadpoles and frogs, leeches and dragonflies in... Continue Reading →
Astral sex with Nergal
Over and over, I have asked the entities to appear to me visible in a corporeal form, rather than always visiting me in their astral form. They can see me. Why can't I get to see them, at least once? Today Nergal from Behemoth possessed me and we had astral sex. I knew instantly it... Continue Reading →
Letting go is essential for magical development
Look around. Everything you see is the pretty paper that hides the most precious gift. Everything you see is the movie playing on a screen. What is beyond the screen? I know you think this is a tired old analogy. This is not a theory, dear readers. I am not telling you something I came... Continue Reading →
Becoming divine: Choosing to let go of who and what I have been
Illustration from E.A. Koetting live stream interview with Martin McGreggor: odysee.com/@EAKoetting/ea-martin-interview The Self-Deification spellwork is available on BALG here: becomealivinggod.com/deificationmagick I haven't read The Deification Spellbook, or taken the course. However, some of the themes and stages explored in this summary for Martin McGreggor's contributions to the book describe the changes that have been happening... Continue Reading →
The arc of my ascent: live stream with E.A. Koetting
December 28th ~ E.A. Koetting live stream ~ My comment in live stream chat ~ time stamp 1:15:20 Astarte Astaroth... ding ding... there's my real vibes bell. Astarte thank you for your support, I appreciate you. You say... (Eric reads my comment): — My cosmology got blown up. I thought I was on THE path,... Continue Reading →
Father Satan
—This page on my blog has several graphics to load.... patience, dear reader— Father, I love you. Is it enough for me to love you forever? Forever have you loved me, your creation. Forever will you make me greater, yours. Yours forever. Father Satan, I find you always so close. Closer than close, deep within... Continue Reading →
The pain of still-birth, pushing out the part that I thought was me
17 October I have been divided by Lord Satan. There is no room left inside of me where the limited and the unlimited of my ascent can touch and overlap. It is PAINFUL as the one I have been dies. It is PAINFUL, this still-birth of the one I thought I was, the dark and... Continue Reading →
Ritual to install Satan in the temple of my heart
Invocation of Satan Ritual to install Lord Satan in the temple of my heart Agios Satanas, Salve Sathanas Numinous is Satanas, Blessed is Sathanas Tasa Reme Laris Satan Sathanas, Sathan, Sathanel Ave Satanas, Ave Ave Hail Satan, Bearer of Chaos, the Great Adversary Hail unto Satanas, Lord over All, the Great Accuser Patron of Alchemy... Continue Reading →
Consecrating my heart to Satan
—Banner image from video by Behemoth-X, thank you Mr. Nunn— I was watching a video with a ritual and mantra to Satan. I started to type an email to Mr. Nunn, asking if he would share with me the words of the mantra. I only made it a little way into the email. Suddenly I... Continue Reading →
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