A record of my ascent as a theistic Satanist and black magician by Astarte Astaroth
Hail, and well met, __________. Thank you for your intriguing DM. I would love to get to know you more. Since finding the occult a year ago, I have (so far) been a solitary practitioner with online connections to occult learning about the skills of invocation/evocation, astral travel, etc. I have always been an adept... Continue Reading →
Ack, I am back in the soup. Doubt and fear. Fear and doubt. I face these as my enemy. The line against them is broken, I fall back. Reeling backwards into the familiar fox hole of my life of hiding. No! I might be in this hole again... It might feel inevitable... BUT the energies... Continue Reading →
Hi E____, I'll bet you know immediately what I am talking about if I say that as someone raised Mormon, I am plagued by doubt. Self-questioning and examination. Re-examination. Endless...! Am I fooling myself? Has the devil's deception begun to take root in my day to day life? In the very things I care most... Continue Reading →
Hi E___... I had a huge insight. As you know, I experienced a full awakening of my kundalini by a Hindu master at the beginning of 2000, and lived in an ashram for three years. From that time until discovering the Occult a year ago, I experienced intense kundalini and meditation work that has burned... Continue Reading →
I feel like I have consolidated the gains of the last 20+ years. I linger here at the crossroads... But what if I should strike now, while the iron is hot? Is it time to move from what is known, to set out on a new path? I feel the potential for forward movement, but... Continue Reading →
Direct message from Astarte Astaroth Hi A_________: Thank you for your reply. I have really enjoyed your comments in our live streams, and enjoyed reading about your magical path. About me. I was raised Mormon and left the church in my teens. I have been a seeker all my life and learned about astral work... Continue Reading →
I can frame it thus: it is not enough. It is not enough to know my true nature: a being much greater than this. It is not enough to know the true nature of this, the universe: truly the multiverse. It is not enough to know that I will not reach a full attainment... this,... Continue Reading →
—Cover art from The Instant by Amy Liptrot— I am not trying to get anywhere. I have arrived. I surf the moments, the river of experience, of transformation and ascent. Only someone who could understand me... if I said I had been waiting all of my life for my life to begin... can understand what... Continue Reading →
I sank into deep meditation, but again I realized it was a trance, and that this was somewhat different. It wasn't so much about stilling my mind, as it was opening to transforming energies. This time I was in a deeply altered state that I don't remember experiencing before. I could feel myself being transformed,... Continue Reading →
I find myself in a box. One that I made for myself. One I have never thought outside of, and so, the one I never acted outside of. I have been ambitious all my life. My ambition has made me serious to a fault. But my ambition was and has not been a gamble. My... Continue Reading →
Twilight in the Underworld 
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