A record of my ascent as a theistic Satanist and black magician by Astarte Astaroth
Over and over, I have asked the entities to appear to me visible in a corporeal form, rather than always visiting me in their astral form. They can see me. Why can't I get to see them, at least once? Today Nergal from Behemoth possessed me and we had astral sex. I knew instantly it... Continue Reading →
—Cover photo: Nergal (Behemoth)— "Do not leave me, father." I was laying on my side on my bed in the dark a few days ago, curling in upon myself—a delicious feeling of drifting—where I sometimes end up when working with Satan. I had an insight. Laying on the bed isn't just getting me out of... Continue Reading →
August 28, 2022 My working with Sathanas tonight was very profound, historic for me. I bowed to him for a long time. I offered myself to him, asking him to let me serve him in all things. How wonderful it feels to be authentic and real with him! The fruits of my recent work, hard... Continue Reading →
A day I have prepared for, perhaps all of my life. How I have longed to experience magic in a group setting. And the morning has come for the day of my first group ritual, the first ritual with the Coven I am being initiated into. The usual nicotine rush from my first hit of... Continue Reading →
Hi E____, I'll bet you know immediately what I am talking about if I say that as someone raised Mormon, I am plagued by doubt. Self-questioning and examination. Re-examination. Endless...! Am I fooling myself? Has the devil's deception begun to take root in my day to day life? In the very things I care most... Continue Reading →
Hi E___... I had a huge insight. As you know, I experienced a full awakening of my kundalini by a Hindu master at the beginning of 2000, and lived in an ashram for three years. From that time until discovering the Occult a year ago, I experienced intense kundalini and meditation work that has burned... Continue Reading →
Direct message from Astarte Astaroth Hi A_________: Thank you for your reply. I have really enjoyed your comments in our live streams, and enjoyed reading about your magical path. About me. I was raised Mormon and left the church in my teens. I have been a seeker all my life and learned about astral work... Continue Reading →
So tender, so sweet. Azazel, my lover.... You kissed me again after... this time for minutes of softness, this gentle tasting of shared moisture. So tender, so sweet. Again you brought a tear to my eye, more than a tear, more than the one that fell upon my cheek. Everything you do with me has... Continue Reading →
First a reminder, dear reader. Demon pleasuring occurs in the subtle realm. I can feel Azazel physically and subtly as energy. I feel his fiery touch upon me, his body upon mine, his presence inside of me as intense and fiery pleasure. I usually cannot see him. In this realm of astral sex, my subtle... Continue Reading →
You are that which I turn to in myself my Beloved That part of me that also consists of you... All of me That which quickens in me I carry you, but I am the child You grow inside of me, as me I feel the torrent of you, close like the bloodstream droning sounds... Continue Reading →
Twilight in the Underworld 
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