A record of my ascent as a theistic Satanist and black magician by Astarte Astaroth
—Image from cover of 'Hallowed Ground' by Death Dealer—I love this "dark academia" portrayal of evocation. The parchment spell is seen floating downward from the magician's open hand. I don't expect my first demon evocation to full manifestation to be quite this dramatic.— Calling Upon Hell, by E.A. Koetting An excerpt from "Works of Darkness:... Continue Reading →
Hi E____, I'll bet you know immediately what I am talking about if I say that as someone raised Mormon, I am plagued by doubt. Self-questioning and examination. Re-examination. Endless...! Am I fooling myself? Has the devil's deception begun to take root in my day to day life? In the very things I care most... Continue Reading →
Last night. I felt the place of trance opening as I lit the candles, waved the incense, offered drops of my blood to the sigils of Azazel and Belial. I smeared my blood on a slip of paper and burned it in my brazier, offering my life's essence to Death. I said some magical phrases.... Continue Reading →
Hi E___... I had a huge insight. As you know, I experienced a full awakening of my kundalini by a Hindu master at the beginning of 2000, and lived in an ashram for three years. From that time until discovering the Occult a year ago, I experienced intense kundalini and meditation work that has burned... Continue Reading →
—Ritual art by Behemoth-X— I feel the desire to worship, to exalt. But the entities I work with do not want to be worshiped, not at all. They want me to exalt myself. I can worship Death. When I worship Death, I worship the power that is in all power, the current that is in... Continue Reading →
—'Autopsy' by Enrique Simonet— I cannot be truly powerful unless I am integrated. Integrated means grasping the whole of what I am. When I am involved in addictive behaviors, I am trying to get something from a substance or activity. This pursuit is mentally and physically obsessive. Obsession is the opposite of integration. I have... Continue Reading →
Last night. Again I dropped immediately into a very deep meditation. I felt Azazel's presence, the bliss of possession enclosing and filling my being. "Help me," I said. "Help me to know... how to get beyond this mental cycle of crippling doubt and foolish abandon? Back and forth. It all came into focus. I could... Continue Reading →
— Cover art by Sir Lawrence Alma-Tadema 'The Women of Amphissa'— Ritual. I wore my special temple robe and unfurled the Qliphothic circle to stand/sit in. I lit all the candles, and waved incense to the deities of my temple. I sacrificed (a little of) my blood on my new Azazel sigil. My breathing was... Continue Reading →
I dreamed that I was sitting on a couch opposite B______-X. It felt so good to be chatting with him, to be treated as an equal. I felt myself lifted up, my self-worth soaring. My body was singing with the pleasure of doing something that I love. Being close to someone I greatly admire. At... Continue Reading →
Israel Regardie's "Egyptian" version of the Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram posted by Musings of Gnwmythr Section One: Beginning a Ritual 1.1 Egyptian Cross 1.2 Sigils to the Quarters 1.3 Invocation of Deities 1.1 Egyptian Cross Stand facing the East, and imagine a beam of brilliant light – so brilliant you cannot discern its... Continue Reading →
Twilight in the Underworld 
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