A record of my ascent as a theistic Satanist and black magician by Astarte Astaroth
I feel new. A surge of immense power. Everything has shifted. The shift that happens as a singularity in a moment of time. The shift, Eric said. The shift is the breadcrumb that goes all the way down. There was a moment. The moment when the divine presence of the entities changed from the experience... Continue Reading →
Sorry it didn't work out for (all of) us to get together (for a group ritual). We need to do that soon. VOUDON RITUALS Wet head being fill vacuum being brought into the head back up from full possession snakes twine together Azazel pulling me to ritual depths Alabaster, spearmint, lemons, bowl of water cover... Continue Reading →
Hi E____, I'll bet you know immediately what I am talking about if I say that as someone raised Mormon, I am plagued by doubt. Self-questioning and examination. Re-examination. Endless...! Am I fooling myself? Has the devil's deception begun to take root in my day to day life? In the very things I care most... Continue Reading →
Last night. I felt the place of trance opening as I lit the candles, waved the incense, offered drops of my blood to the sigils of Azazel and Belial. I smeared my blood on a slip of paper and burned it in my brazier, offering my life's essence to Death. I said some magical phrases.... Continue Reading →
Hi E___... I had a huge insight. As you know, I experienced a full awakening of my kundalini by a Hindu master at the beginning of 2000, and lived in an ashram for three years. From that time until discovering the Occult a year ago, I experienced intense kundalini and meditation work that has burned... Continue Reading →
Direct message from Astarte Astaroth Hi A_________: Thank you for your reply. I have really enjoyed your comments in our live streams, and enjoyed reading about your magical path. About me. I was raised Mormon and left the church in my teens. I have been a seeker all my life and learned about astral work... Continue Reading →
So tender, so sweet. Azazel, my lover.... You kissed me again after... this time for minutes of softness, this gentle tasting of shared moisture. So tender, so sweet. Again you brought a tear to my eye, more than a tear, more than the one that fell upon my cheek. Everything you do with me has... Continue Reading →
First a reminder, dear reader. Demon pleasuring occurs in the subtle realm. I can feel Azazel physically and subtly as energy. I feel his fiery touch upon me, his body upon mine, his presence inside of me as intense and fiery pleasure. I usually cannot see him. In this realm of astral sex, my subtle... Continue Reading →
I have entered a stage where I am so tired, and so achy, I feel like I am dying. It is like the tired and achy parts of a very bad flu. I never get sick, so it has been many many years since I have had a cold or the flu. I think I... Continue Reading →
A vision. The latest of several. Having visions is new for me. I usually receive transformative consciousness as energy in my body. The primary, initial vision: I am a huge energy being at least four to five times bigger than my mundane body size. I am "floating," with energy rippling outward in all directions, emanating... Continue Reading →
Twilight in the Underworld 
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