A record of my ascent as a theistic Satanist and black magician by Astarte Astaroth
It is happening. It has taken most of the month of January. To stop. To stop being driven. I spent a year building and maturing my business. I've done quite well. And I have been obsessed, an obsession that lasted every day for most of the day. Since November 2021. I was instructed. To stop.... Continue Reading →
I am having so many intensely transformative experiences that I have felt unable to blog about them. Everything is old news the next day. Yesterday... A few days ago. A few days ago, I encountered this quote online: "The astral universe… is hundreds of times larger than the material universe…[with] many astral planets, teeming with... Continue Reading →
—Banner image from video by Behemoth-X, thank you Mr. Nunn— I was watching a video with a ritual and mantra to Satan. I started to type an email to Mr. Nunn, asking if he would share with me the words of the mantra. I only made it a little way into the email. Suddenly I... Continue Reading →
August 28, 2022 I am so far behind on my grimoire. I will record a few important things as I remember them, but first, regarding my ritual work tonight. I planned to work with Sathanas, but was impressed to work with Belial. He came to me with a heavy possession of bliss, my body fluid... Continue Reading →
Hi E____, I'll bet you know immediately what I am talking about if I say that as someone raised Mormon, I am plagued by doubt. Self-questioning and examination. Re-examination. Endless...! Am I fooling myself? Has the devil's deception begun to take root in my day to day life? In the very things I care most... Continue Reading →
Last night. I felt the place of trance opening as I lit the candles, waved the incense, offered drops of my blood to the sigils of Azazel and Belial. I smeared my blood on a slip of paper and burned it in my brazier, offering my life's essence to Death. I said some magical phrases.... Continue Reading →
Hi E___... I had a huge insight. As you know, I experienced a full awakening of my kundalini by a Hindu master at the beginning of 2000, and lived in an ashram for three years. From that time until discovering the Occult a year ago, I experienced intense kundalini and meditation work that has burned... Continue Reading →
Working with Belial again. It has been several months since he "passed me on" to work with Set. I started by calling him to my temple, but he did not come. I said "I'm afraid," and I felt him comforting me. I began to settle down, eventually into a trance. I saw him with his... Continue Reading →
Art by Mateusz Twardoch - NOTE: I am bipolar and I was manic as hell on this day. When I am manic, it feels like everything I've ever wanted is dropping into place. Not that it isn't. But things look different when mundane reality eventually seeps back in a few days (or weeks) later. My... Continue Reading →
I have been taking a break from a second daily ritual in the morning. After Belial's teaching, I wanted to do a ritual this morning. I have this evening "off." I added more food offerings to the plate at the altar and took my ritual bath, preparing myself for ritual, scenting my body, and donning... Continue Reading →
Twilight in the Underworld 
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