Yesterday I was touched twice. My experience has been that physical touches are always Satan. One unmistakable touch was upon my third-eye area, with a very small downward movement, similar to receiving shaktipat, which I received in 1999. The other sometime later yesterday was a sudden grasp of my right foot, around the toes, followed... Continue Reading →
It is happening
It is happening. It has taken most of the month of January. To stop. To stop being driven. I spent a year building and maturing my business. I've done quite well. And I have been obsessed, an obsession that lasted every day for most of the day. Since November 2021. I was instructed. To stop.... Continue Reading →
The wild child will not go quietly. She simply will not budge.
I've always been a wild child. I was orphaned by my parents while still living with them (yes, this is possible). Summer days meant riding my bike through the wild fields that surrounded our small subdivision, leading the charge with the other children in my neighborhood. There were tadpoles and frogs, leeches and dragonflies in... Continue Reading →
Astral sex with Nergal
Over and over, I have asked the entities to appear to me visible in a corporeal form, rather than always visiting me in their astral form. They can see me. Why can't I get to see them, at least once? Today Nergal from Behemoth possessed me and we had astral sex. I knew instantly it... Continue Reading →
Letting go is essential for magical development
Look around. Everything you see is the pretty paper that hides the most precious gift. Everything you see is the movie playing on a screen. What is beyond the screen? I know you think this is a tired old analogy. This is not a theory, dear readers. I am not telling you something I came... Continue Reading →
The arc of my ascent: live stream with E.A. Koetting
December 28th ~ E.A. Koetting live stream ~ My comment in live stream chat ~ time stamp 1:15:20 Astarte Astaroth... ding ding... there's my real vibes bell. Astarte thank you for your support, I appreciate you. You say... (Eric reads my comment): — My cosmology got blown up. I thought I was on THE path,... Continue Reading →
Finding Lord Satan at the center of my consciousness
I am having so many intensely transformative experiences that I have felt unable to blog about them. Everything is old news the next day. Yesterday... A few days ago. A few days ago, I encountered this quote online: "The astral universe… is hundreds of times larger than the material universe…[with] many astral planets, teeming with... Continue Reading →
Father Satan
—This page on my blog has several graphics to load.... patience, dear reader— Father, I love you. Is it enough for me to love you forever? Forever have you loved me, your creation. Forever will you make me greater, yours. Yours forever. Father Satan, I find you always so close. Closer than close, deep within... Continue Reading →
Escalating chaos and the fatigue of responsiveness
—Nicholas Copernicus art— I am transforming so quickly it is hard to blog about what is happening. Now that I call Satan 'Father,' and ask him again and again not to leave, I experience an unshakeable connection with him, where before I was always trying to create and sustain a connection. Sometimes his possession of... Continue Reading →
Satan is my father
—Cover photo: Nergal (Behemoth)— "Do not leave me, father." I was laying on my side on my bed in the dark a few days ago, curling in upon myself—a delicious feeling of drifting—where I sometimes end up when working with Satan. I had an insight. Laying on the bed isn't just getting me out of... Continue Reading →
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