A record of my ascent by Astarte Astaroth
Working with Belial again. It has been several months since he "passed me on" to work with Set. I started by calling him to my temple, but he did not come. I said "I'm afraid," and I felt him comforting me. I began to settle down, eventually into a trance. I saw him with his... Continue Reading →
Direct message from Astarte Astaroth Hi A_________: Thank you for your reply. I have really enjoyed your comments in our live streams, and enjoyed reading about your magical path. About me. I was raised Mormon and left the church in my teens. I have been a seeker all my life and learned about astral work... Continue Reading →
I have attended both of E.A. Koetting's recent live streams on Odysee, and he addressed a question I had in both chats. His comments were very helpful to me, so I took the time to transcribe our interactions, as follows. (I note here that Eric has live streams on Odysee most Wednesdays at 11a my... Continue Reading →
I feel the desire to worship, to exalt. But the entities I work with do not want to be worshiped, not at all. They want me to exalt myself. I can worship Death. When I worship Death, I worship the power that is in all power, the current that is in everything that is. To... Continue Reading →
So tender, so sweet. You kissed me again after... this time for minutes of softness, this gentle tasting of shared moisture. So tender, so sweet. Again you brought a tear to my eye, more than a tear, more than the one that fell upon my cheek. Everything you do with me has a greater purpose.... Continue Reading →
New understanding. I connect to the currents of other magicians I know and relate to. I am not 'over here' reading their book, thinking of them 'over there.' We are connected energetically. It is a spontaneous and real linking that I can recognize, nurture and depend on. I am currently connected to the personal currents... Continue Reading →
A vision. The latest of several. Having visions is new for me. I usually receive transformative consciousness as energy in my body. The primary, initial vision: I am a huge energy being at least four to five times bigger than my mundane body size. I am "floating," with energy rippling outward in all directions, emanating... Continue Reading →
You are that which I turn to in myself my Beloved That part of me that also consists of you... All of me That which quickens in me I carry you, but I am the child You grow inside of me, as me I feel the torrent of you, close like the bloodstream droning sounds... Continue Reading →
I can frame it thus: it is not enough. It is not enough to know my true nature: a being much greater than this. It is not enough to know the true nature of this, the universe: truly the multiverse. It is not enough to know that I will not reach a full attainment... this,... Continue Reading →
—Cover art from The Instant by Amy Liptrot— I am not trying to get anywhere. I have arrived. I surf the moments, the river of experience, of transformation and ascent. Only someone who could understand me... if I said I had been waiting all of my life for my life to begin... can understand what... Continue Reading →
Twilight in the Underworld 
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