A certain wholeness

—Art by Fulco Culto ~ A God and a Goddess Wedding— "Expectation is a prison." ~Robert Fripp It's simple really. The choice. Trade away my purpose for a tantalizing transformation into something I am not, or find my purpose, the specific transformation I am born to. I have experienced my life and who I am... Continue Reading →

Finding the Death Current within

Art by William Morris "Cache" . I am not on the road to somewhere else, to anywhere at all. I am there. I am here. What is happening is about now. Not about where I'm wanting, hoping, trying to get to. When an entity fills me with divine, subtly dissolving energy, that is about this... Continue Reading →

Mother Death

DEATH I SUMMON Death I have become. Death has become me. I cause the black earth to open its gates, for I have buried a creature of flesh within thee. The blackened putrid soul of the dead has covered and coalesced within this offering of mortal flesh, my heart. Let a single drop of death's... Continue Reading →

Grimoire: Azazel

Art by Cambion Art on Deviant Art Today I worked with Azazel for the first time. I meant to work with him last night, but I had a very intense session with Set, and decided to wait until tonight. I carved Azazel's name in the red and black candles I then lit for him. I... Continue Reading →

Grimoire: Set and Naamah

Art by Cambion Art on Deviant Art I felt called to the altar in early evening. I sacrificed a few drops of blood upon the sigils of Set, Naamah, Lilith, and Belial. I raised kundalini through my spine to my crown. I spoke to Set, and he came to my temple, my bedroom by my... Continue Reading →

Best day ever… EVER

Art by Mateusz Twardoch - NOTE: I am bipolar and I was manic as hell on this day. When I am manic, it feels like everything I've ever wanted is dropping into place. Not that it isn't. But things look different when mundane reality eventually seeps back in a few days (or weeks) later. My... Continue Reading →

Bringing an Agenda to Chaos

What if I brought an agenda to chaos? Trying to turn magic into this certain thing... it doesn't work. I looked, and occult was real. I looked, and saw magic as my new path. Finally, my life would begin. Heartache. The entities come when they want. They come during the day, then ignore me during... Continue Reading →

Grimoire: Seth

I felt a few energetic tickles while I was watching TV. I shut off the TV, and took a shower, then settled in front of my altar. I have discovered that Seth (Set, Seth) likes it when I stroke his statue. I stroke down his long nose, and on his funny ears. His arms, his... Continue Reading →

Leaning into dissolving ego

JOURNAL — Sep 21 2021 — I have been completely miserable starting the day after E.A. Koetting's live chat on the 15th. During the live chat, I experienced a huge flow of blissful energy coming through E.A. and his channel into me. He spoke to me near the end. The next day, I could not... Continue Reading →

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