Entities touch me, fill me, withdraw from me, return

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I do not evolve alone.

Entities touch me, fill me, withdraw from me, return. In each way they teach me.

They teach me what to pay attention to. They teach me what is extraneous noise.

They teach me to let go of what I think it means, their interactions with me.

I try to hold on, thinking I know now what my relationship is with them, and what they are giving me.

They withdraw.

I struggle with doubt. I remember once more that I now put doubt aside.

I let go of expectation. I become teachable.

I have been taught. I was given a vision. I am given visions.

I saw myself as a being of dark light, emanating, with permeable boundaries.

I saw my path as an endless ascent, with no destination.

These two lessons have profoundly changed me, transformed who I am, my thinking, my goals, my basic concepts of attainment.

Today I saw a huge gyre, moving slowly. I have yet to unpack the meaning of this.

I was inspired to investigate Thelema. I was transfixed by a photo of the altar for the Gnostic Mass. I was filled with a constant rush of energy as I contemplated buying a book about Thelema.

I am learning. I know to buy the book. I know to consider contacting the local lodge of Thelema. But I don’t necessarily know what these revelations mean. They unfold. I am led.

Somehow I am connected to the magical current that emanates from Aleister Crowley. This flow of energy may or may not be about him, or Thelema.

That said, I absolutely relate to the basics of Thelema:

Do as the wilt shall be the whole of the law. Love is the law, love under will.

My will is the very certain path I finally find myself on. My path. The entities that work with me are informing my ascent along this very certain path, the true expression of my will. My purpose.

And… For our great comfort… all is love. Love under will.

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LIBER II
THE MESSAGE OF THE MASTER THERION

[The quotations in this Message are from Liber
Legis — The Book of the Law]

“Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.”
“There is no Law beyond Do what thou wilt.”
“The word of the law is θελημα.”
θελημα-ΤΙἹΘΙΘΠΙἃ-ΠἹΘΞΠΞWill.

The Key to this Message is this word—Will. The first obvious meaning of this Law is confirmed by antithesis: “The word of Sin is Restriction”

Again: “Thou hast no right but to do thy will. Do that and no other shall say nay. For pure will, unassuaged of purpose, delivered from the lust of result, is every way perfect.”

Take this carefully; it seems to imply a theory that if every man and every woman did his and her will—the true will—there would be no clashing. “Every man and every woman is a star,” and each star moves in an appointed path without interference. There is plenty of room for all; it is only disorder that creates confusion.

From these considerations it should be clear that “Do what thou wilt” does not mean "Do what you like.” It is the apotheosis of Freedom; but it is also the strictest possible bond.

Do what thou wilt—then do nothing else. Let nothing deflect thee from that austere and holy task. Liberty is absolute to do thy will; but seek to do any other thing whatever, and instantly obstacles must arise. Every act that is not in definite course of that one orbit is erratic, an hindrance. Will must not be two, but one.

Note further that this will is not only to be pure, that is, single, as explained above, but also “unassuaged of purpose.” This strange phrase must give us pause. It may mean that any purpose in the will would damp it; clearly the “lust 01 result” is a thing from which it must be delivered.

But the phrase may also be interpreted as if it read “with purpose unassuaged” — i. e., with tireless energy, The conception is, therefore, 01 an eternal motion, infinite and unalterable. It is Nirvana, only dynamic instead of static—-and this comes to the same thing in the end.

The obvious practical task of the magician is then to discover what his will really is, so that he may do it in this manner, and he can best accomplish this by the practices of Liber Thisarb (see EQUINOX Ι. VII. :05) or such others as may from one time to another be appointed.

It should now be perfectly simple for everybody to understand the Message 01 the Master Therion.

Thou must (I) Find out what is thy Will. (2) Do that Will with (a) one-pointedness, (b) detachment, (c) peace. Then, and then only, art thou in harmony with the Movement of Things, thy will part of, and therefore equal to, the Will of God. And since the will is but the dynamic aspect 01 the self, and since two different selves could not possess identical wills; then, if thy will be God’s will, Thou art That

There is but one other word to explain. Elsewhere it is written—surely for our great comfort—“Love is the law, love under will."

This is to be taken as meaning that while Will is the Law, the nature of that Will is Love. But this Love is as it were a by-product of that Will; it does not contradict or supersede that Will; and if apparent contradiction should arise in any crisis, it is the Will that will guide us aright. Lo, while in the Book of the Law is much of Love, there is no word of Sentimentality. Hate itself is almost like Love! Fighting most certainly is Love! “As brothers fight ye!” All the manly races of the world understand this. The Love 01 Liber Legis is always bold, virile, even orgiastic. There is delicacy, but it is the delicacy of strength. Mighty and terrible and glorious as it is, however, it is but the pennon upon the sacred lance of Will, the damascened inscription upon the swords 01 the Knight—monks of Thelema.

Love is the law, love under will.

SCANS FROM ALEISTER CROWLEY’S ‘THE EQUINOX’
More at keepsilence.org/the-equinox